Right.. im at home .. not happy to be honest... i cant wait to find a job because i cant be at my house 24/ 7 ... seriously its fucking driving me crazy... i miss Ryan i think a lot .. i do chores ... not healthy shit to be honest and i only have a few days like that .. so my vacations cant be like that .. i rather work than be like this for almost 3 months ... so hopefully ill get a job soon ... we are having trouble with the " living with my boyfriend " situation ... it sucks ... i dunno why my dad is sooo close minded .. and traditional .. my parents got pregnant before marriage i dunno why they are asking me to stay virgin and get married till i finish uni HA HA HA !!! .. so silly haha .. that idea makes me laugh ... well i dunno what to do .. i just wanna get the fuck out of here because its not cool to be in a place you dont really wanna be ... so all i need to do is be strong and believe that soon i will be able to do that .. because here im judge by people who is worse than me im sure of that .. and its not fair ... sorry guys for making you read this ... me wining here ... sorry but i feel desperate .. and here is a good way to let things get out of my system i guess ... i wish i could be more like ... Ryan for example .. but i cant ... im weak and silly i guess ... sience  i was born haha ... right .. so i have to finish to do some stuff around my house helping my mum .. i love helping anyone but ... being in this situation where men here are sexist as fuck .. i hate this i cant stand looking at my mum doing everything for my dad .. this is just NOT right ... i feel frustrated and desperate because my mum is used to all this ... so unfair ... sad sad sad ... 
ok ... so only 91 days and Ry will be in Mexico with me :D yay !!
i cant wait to see my lover and hug him :D kiss him and share everything. 
fuck the people with negative thoughts im sick of that .. and here people is like that the whole time ... so ill have to stay strong and dont listen to all those negative comments ... 

because i believe in love... no one will break that.